Pavlakian

maggie_nyrac @ 2009-11-23T00:30:00

2009-11-23T06:28:22Z

I never knew how lucky I was.

I never appreciated how easily we all clicked back home, how conversation flowed without strain, how I could bring up real issues without the fear of losing already-fragile friendships. I never realized how easily everything came to me, how I could do everything and actually have fun without having to study for the next forty-eight hours to make up for it. I miss the confidence to say what I think in class, I miss seeing my friends in the halls. I miss theater. I miss Attic Salt, and DC Band, and terrible dances, and Monday Adventures. I miss adventuring.

I never thought that I would miss any of it. I thought that I could just leave Michigan and DC and Dearborn behind and start this amazing life, filled with trendy clothes and intelligent conversations and lattes and music. It's not what I expected. Now, don't get me wrong, I love everything about it, but I never thought that Michigan would actually leave a space in my heart that only it can fill.

College is wonderful; I'm learning so much and meeting so many people. I do have fun, I promise. It's just that nothing comes as easily as it did back home. I look in the mirror, and I don't see myself. I see a tired, haggard, worn-out version of myself with poor time-management skills. The circles under my eyes have never been bigger.

I needed a challenge, but I hadn't expected it to be this big. Living in Chicago...People are different here. You learn a faster, brusquer way of talking and moving. People don't meet your eyes, and they don't smile if they accidentally make eye contact.

I guess that I'm just frustrated and tired. Thanksgiving is coming at a pretty great time.

maggie_nyrac @ 2009-01-08T16:23:00

2009-01-08T21:27:20Z

Well.

Other than the facts that my back hurts beyond belief, I have a bruise on my ass, I twisted my ankle, and I can't stay in the same position for more than twenty minutes, I would say today could have been worse.

At least I can breathe again!

Did you know that I've never had the wind knocked out of me? Who would expect the language hall to be wet and slippery? Especially outside of room 117? Well, now I'll be on the lookout for crazy floor conditions in school.

I had to file an accident report today.

But then I went home and slept and took a bunch of Tylenol.

Ouch.

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-12-31T10:44:00

2007-12-31T15:44:24Z

Sweeny Todd is morbid, yet utterly AMAZING.

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-11-10T22:21:00

2007-11-11T03:21:49Z

I'm so excited to be Blue laking it tomorrow.

!!!!

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-11-03T11:52:00

2007-11-03T15:51:03Z

I hate my nose.
OUCH.

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-09-28T09:39:00

2007-09-28T13:40:15Z

Bonjour, mes amies.

So, going to the doctor today..

Let me know what happened in the classes, por favor.

love cpav

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-08-28T11:42:00

2007-08-28T15:44:55Z

Happy last day of summer.

Thank goodness Sarum is done and over with.

I need starbucks.

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-08-23T13:05:00

2007-08-23T17:05:25Z

I'M GOING TO EUROPE!!! I'M GOING TO EUROPE!!! I'M GOING TO EUROPE!!!

I am SO excited.

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-07-10T13:33:00

2007-07-10T17:35:32Z

So i'm heading off to blue Lake tomorrow.

Send me mail, and I'll return the favor. (BTW- I need your addresses..)

Caryn Pavlak
Blue Lake Fine Arts Camp
Central Camp-Sleepy Hollow- Strauss
300 East Crystal Lake Road
Twin Lake, MI
49457

I'm going to miss you all so much!
See you at DIC summer camp or at Band Camp!

love, caryn

maggie_nyrac @ 2007-05-09T02:13:00

2007-05-09T02:13:27Z

so.

new username, I guess.

It's been coming, I just had to think of an appropriate name.

maggie= kickass middle name.
nyrac= caryn spelled backwards.

(Caryn Margaret)

maggie_nyrac.
no fluff or fuss. It's just a name.

I like it.

Ohhh.